I actually find this picture a little disturbing to look at. A usually healthy, curvy size 8 with a rather large bum and quite impressive thighs, it pains me to look at this photo. I always hated my figure before, almost sure I was a little chubby, but looking back on old photos, I couldn’t have been more wrong.

I spent my entire life wanting to be skinny. Staring in awe at the models posted all over social media, wishing I could look just an ounce as good as them. But comparing myself now to myself then, all I can see is disease. The disease that drained the life out of me (and apparently the fat too). Now, I’m not saying there is ANYTHING wrong with skinny – but there is most definitely a huge difference between being slim and being unhealthy, which it seems I sadly am at this weight.

I never thought I’d say this but I actually miss thinking “does my bum look big in this?”